Hard to believe it's only been a month since I wrote in here last, a lot of things have changed. Mentally, I'm better than I have been in a long while and I owe that solely to the people I'm lucky enough to call my friends. Sometimes when you're going through something hard you think you need to close off and be reclusive and hermit-like to get past it. I don't like people seeing me bye emotional, like really, genuinely emotional, but what I have found is that running from everyone only leaves you completely wrapped up in the same emptiness you were trying to avoid. 

I'm lucky my friends have accepted me back into their lives with open arms after I neglected them for too long. I'm working on repairing the damaged relationship with my family. I had to suck the poison out of my life before I could be okay, even though in this case the poison was myself. My New Year's resolution this year is to be relaxed. I don't want to stress, I don't want to fight, I don't want to worry about petty things. I want to be me and be happy with just that. For now, I'm well on my way, I think this new found independence suits me. I want to be practical, I want to be a whole individual while at the same time self-reliant. I guess I have a lot of resolutions in the end.